I am learning again. Once I gave up learning because I thought I can´t anyway be good enough, there´s always somebody, who is better. I gave up learning because I thought there is so much information of everything that I can´t anyway get to know all. I felt learning new things is quite pointless.
But now I learn again. Study. Maybe this came with my ability to enjoy the life, play with the life. Doing things for fun. Because they fit right now.
I started to learn CranioSacral Therapy. First this old thought came – it is too late for me to learn something new so that I will be (very) good in it. At the course it was sometimes hard for me, I could not feel the things I was supposed to, I felt I have no talent. I had to tell myself many times “It is good enough, I don´t have to understand everything at once”. So I was parenting myself, more relaxed I was, more happy I became. I looked out from the window, chickens where going around in the garden, being one with themselves and teaching me to open my senses. Calm smoothly hilly landscape behind the big windows teached me to breath and enjoy.
After the course I was reading John E. Upledger´s book “Your Inner Physician and You”, which was so inspiring that after I finished the book I knew I just have to go on with CranioTherapy. This is the book about how we can heal each other, for that we need our hands and trust.
Before I started to write I took rest on the mattress, felt a bit lazy, and then my Angel told me to go to write. I said I don´t know what to write about, it said it doesn´t matter, words will come when I start. I got the idea to write about today, but when I started to write, I wrote about something else.
It is risky for me to talk about the angels, but I do that because they help me so much. I have friends around me with who we talk about different situations when angels helped us, but other friends doesn´t know about it and I am afraid they will think bad about me. Hard thing is that I can´t be a good person for everyone.
One young guy came to me today after one meeting and showed me a small feather what he just found, he told me it is from the angel and he put this feather carefully into his wallet. This beautiful moment gave me courage to write.
Let´s believe in angels, in love – we need more kindness and softness in us and around us.