Looking back

Looking back

One month can be so wide and long. Filled with so many moments that it feels like a half of year has passed. I experience this kind of awakeness since I started to travel from one place to another instead living at the same place.

When I came here to Dahab, we started course with Iris Johansson. In the beginning I could not enjoy the moment, I asked her what I am waiting for, why it is so hard to feel myself living, and she said that I am waiting something from outside, instead of looking what I experience in myself. I learned to ask myself “What I feel now?”, “What I would like to do now?”, “Where I would like to be now?”.  It gets better and better but I still have to exercise that.

I was in the beginning more at Mirage café, cutting together the video for Christian and Bea.
Starting to make Instastories, learned to be visible. (It is not dangerous!)
Started Talent Project and made an interview and photo session with Fru Konstnär. Started a documentary movie with her!

Inspiration came to me and I wrote different things for my website. About the dream to have a mobile home, to make projects.
I started to organize a playful course with a playful man, and course name is “Das Leben will mit dir spielen — aber wirklich!” (Life Wants to Play with You — but really!”) Michael put this name and he makes the structure for the course, and this structure is of course flexible, otherwise it will not be playful. : )

I documented and supported local Bedouine to plant 20 palm trees. This was the first real action of Living Landscape Group. I want to support the nature and this is how I will do it. Made instagram account for this Group. Help us to help the nature!

My laptop broke, I brought it to my Egyptian friend and he fixed it. One evening I was taking rest after the troubles with my laptop and then I heard Life telling me to ask help. I asked if Christian and Bea can support me to buy the new laptop so that I could continue to work to them. They agreed! I will give my old one to my Egyptian friend who really likes this laptop. 7 years I had this laptop and I never had a problem with it! I hope it will live another 7 years happily with Nagy. I am a bit afraid to give it away, something in me asks – but if I need it? Maybe I need the second computer just in case? But I know this is not right. I am secured. Life secures me so much! More I let go, more comes.

I feel I write in really funny English, I hope some native English speakers still can understand me. : ) You are welcome to correct me.

I had just nice time here in Dahab, much rest, much sleep, much sun, much good food, much time with nice people.
Maybe I will come back here in November to help to plant some more palm trees.

Today I met one biker guy here in café, he came in and I just started to talk to him and we had a coffee together. He has been on the road since 1950 days as I see it on his website. He is on his way and he inspired me to make an another blog post here.

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