Back in Langenhain, full of ideas and hope. Things which I have had for a long time on my list will be done step by step – I just get annoyed that they stay so long time on the paper and reminding me their existence. Good thing is that getting angry about it means getting some power for doing them. Just doing, instead wishing, wanting, dreaming. Very Pisces´ problem.
I have so many ideas that I almost feel panic in me sometimes because I feel I will never manage to do them all in my life. What to take, what to leave? I am soon 40 and then 70 and then soon I will die! When I think like that, then I can sense some panic, but when I think that maybe I will die tomorrow, then I get quite calm. 🙂 The key is about enjoying, I guess. When I enjoy every minute however it is, then I am living fully and then I don´t need to regret that I didn´t do enough or feel that life just passed by. To enjoy, I need to be here and now, to be here and now, I need to be in myself. Hello, Maarja, nice to be with you again!
Hello dear friends, followers! How are you? Today I woke up in Estonia, listened this and this, danced around a bit and felt wonderful. It feels like I have been in sleep for some months and now life goes on, light comes back and I can see myself again. Last time I forgot Lorna´s prayer book here, now I took it up again, started to read it and I feel how it opens up the light in me and I ask myself: where I have been?
It is such a beautiful winter wonderland outside, for one more day before it starts to melt. In Langenhain there was almost no snow during the winter, so it is nice to be in Estonia right now, soon it will be palm trees, Red Sea and sunshine in Dahab…
Now I take the train and go to visit Hubert Urb and Teodor Tinn.
I had a rich day today. I slept out, then watched how branches were dancing in the wind behind my window, then I went jogging and on the way I passed by the lake, so I went to swim. Howww good it was! I was so thankful that I had to sing. Bright September light, warm wind, fresh water.
Later we cleaned up the old school house with Susanne, took care of cows. I cleaned up one small hut where many ants were living in the summer, now it is clean.
Now I wrote many e-mails and facebook messages to invite people to take part of beneficence to support children in Dahab. 300 Egyptian pounds are 15 EUR, so this is the cost for one child to go to school and get all she/her needs during one school year. We are now 4 persons who want to take part. School starts in 5 days and I don´t know if I can get 10 persons together. I try to not to get stressed. Right now my shoulders are a bit tense and I should go to sleep. I do that.
I am so happy today! Happy to be here, happy that I have possibility to enjoy the life.
I would like to give to you some of my happiness.
Met this guy today, he came into Barbara´s kitchen and we had a talk. He said he has written 300 pages about his life, he was writing at home and then felt he has to go out and enjoy nice summer weather. I told him if he doesn´t get somebody to publish his autobiography, then he could publish it in Memorianum.
When I sat here in my office, rooster was passing by and had an suspicious eye on me.
Back from Cologne, back from my forest walk, back in writing.
I am writing to different women to ask how it is possible to do something for children in Egypt, Dahab. I believe it is important for children to feel that somebody cares about them. When they feel hope, then things can go much better for all the world. We are a big network. Look how much we have here in Europe and how much is missing at some places in the other side of the globe. Let´t try to balance it.
Tasnem, a friend of mine in Dahab will check out the “special case children” in the local school, who´s parents are not able to pay basic payments for the education, they make a list and tell the amounts and we all have possibility to support them. I have no idea how big amounts those are and I have not much money right now, but I believe it will work out when we put our powers together.
Children in Dahab like to go to school. Not all can go to school. I remember it was this February when I passed by a 7-years-old girl in Dahab, she asked me “What is your name?”, I said my name and I asked her name. This was all she could tell in English, but she tried it out immediately what she learned and this little contact made me happy. Her eyes were shining, too.