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10 together

10 together

Today I got together exactly 10 persons who want to give their helping hand for poor families in Dahab! I keep going, I know that there are more children who need this help, families in Egypt are big.

I think about people who are leading big projects to help thousands of children, and I am sitting here and so happy about these 10 I can help. Or, I could say I give possibility for others to help. I feel so small but so happy.

It is strong wind and rain outside and complete darkness. Day was sunny and bright and I managed to enjoy it so much as it was possible. I took all from it. Was jogging, swimming, drying myself up in the sunshine, shouting out my happiness into the wind, hands stretched out to the sky. Cleaned up small huts for the people who are coming tonight and some who already came. Sat on the top of the matresses in the tractor´s trailer while John Arild drove tractor to the school house. Picked apples. Ate food on the balcony, with the view over the lake and felt so special feeling about it – someone cooked and I could eat it, such a luxury! I had everything I need.

Now I put my stuff together, have to make my “office” empty because people are coming to stay here during the course.

Iris is coming tomorrow, Christian, Michael and many other lovely persons as well.

In Hagalund

In Hagalund

I had a rich day today. I slept out, then watched how branches were dancing in the wind behind my window, then I went jogging and on the way I passed by the lake, so I went to swim. Howww good it was! I was so thankful that I had to sing. Bright September light, warm wind, fresh water.

Later we cleaned up the old school house with Susanne, took care of cows. I cleaned up one small hut where many ants were living in the summer, now it is clean.

Now I wrote many e-mails and facebook messages to invite people to take part of beneficence to support children in Dahab. 300 Egyptian pounds are 15 EUR, so this is the cost for one child to go to school and get all she/her needs during one school year. We are now 4 persons who want to take part. School starts in 5 days and I don´t know if I can get 10 persons together. I try to not to get stressed. Right now my shoulders are a bit tense and I should go to sleep. I do that.

I am so happy today! Happy to be here, happy that I have possibility to enjoy the life.

I would like to give to you some of my happiness.

Met this guy today, he came into Barbara´s kitchen and we had a talk. He said he has written 300 pages about his life, he was writing at home and then felt he has to go out and enjoy nice summer weather. I told him if he doesn´t get somebody to publish his autobiography, then he could publish it in Memorianum.

When I sat here in my office, rooster was passing by and had an suspicious eye on me.

Cleaning up.

Fulfilled

Fulfilled

Next day in this house-island is soon ending. Candles are here and there in the room, giving some warm light, laptop and smart phones shining as well.

Outside is warm quiet night, I know that because we just came from the lake. Laptops were charging in the boat garage and we went to pick them up. Sensual night with warm air and calm water, tired moon is slowly going down, getting fatter and more red with every minute.

There will be night swim and then sweet sleep. I feel fulfilled.

Birdchen

Birdchen

Today was again bang-bang-bang in the room where I slept, but it was a nicer reason (for me) – one birdchen was stucked inside. She flew against the windows (not too strong) and didn´t find the way out. I opened all the windows and it took some time until I got her out.


So, after that I was very awake and ready to start the day.

I wrote many e-mails today, organized events, tried to get some people to one course which Iris Johansson is doing with Elke and Torsten Grind in Malta. Course is not really a course, it is more like a healing event. Morning starts with sound therapy, then Iris makes some primary work and later is original play with Torsten. Sounds like a paradise for me, I think every year that next year I will take part. If you are interested, then write to me.

So. My shoulders are e-mail-tired. Need a bit massage tonight.
I had time to go for a walk. I had time to drive car. Had time to steam some vegetables. Look different tractors working. Had time to be really happy. Thankful. Happy again. Tomorrow I will travel to Cologne. Jah.

Overview

Overview

Last days are one-image-days. I just take one photo or none. Art of letting it be like that…

Was a nice day, I had much enthusiasm and I was in flow. First I made my morning rituals and then I walked up to the bench to sit there and feel the day. There´s a nice bench surrounded by birch trees, you can see the village from there and forest. Every time I am there I think – when I come next time I take a knife or something sharp with me to clean the bench from moss. Tomorrow? Maybe when I write it here I will remember.

I was writing different texts for Memorianum and wrote to some friends and asked for translations. Let´s see if they like to translate. Text are very simple and not so official.

Help, so many moths in this flat! I don´t know how many I catched already. The best to catch them is with wet hands. I was reading that they help to get rid of things, if you have a tendency to collect too much stuff and not borrow out or give away or use them yourself, then the moths will help you. Good point! I have it always pitty to give away things which I haven´t used. Shame. I have still half of my stuff in Berlin. Do I miss them? Nope. Have to clean up.

Today we celebrated Christian´s birthday with his workers and family, had many cakes, made some Pär Ahlbom games and then Christian played sound table for everyone. Nice event, would like to have such a meeting once in the month.

Now some steamed vegetables and then I go to bed direction.

 

34,5

34,5

It is easier to write when things are not alright, when something inside is restless and behind everyday life is taste of suffering. When I am satisfied and happy, I think it is too sweet and boring to write about it. This is what I am learning – it is ok to have it good.

So it is – I woke up at 6 again, had my rituals, had enough time to come out from sleep, melt together with the sunlight, greeted this brand new day with all the new possibilities. Storm and rain were gone, fresh air was pressing in through the curtains. Tasty.

Around 11AM I walked through Nõmme to get another driving lession. Teacher was kind and clear and it helped me to be relaxed, didn´t make many mistakes. Happiness was jumping in me when I was getting out from the car, I was shouting “Ciao!” for my teacher, he stopped for a while and then told “Good bye!”. Yesyesyesysessss I can drive! YEEEESSS!

I went to café to celebrate 34,5 years birthday of mine, took a coffee, wrote diary. Listened to one dialog next to me, between ~4 years old girl and her mother.

Girl is moving the straw in her milk to make some bubbles, she is telling happily about her bubble milk.

Mom: Don´t play with food!
Girl: But this is not food, it is milk.
Mom: It is food.
Girl: It is liquid.

Later I bought a new domain: memorianum.net. I started once with one project, but it felt so big that I stopped it. Now I start slowly again, I do so much I can.
It is about people who are not living anymore but who are not forgotten (yet). I see collection of life stories with photos, comments from different people, some photos, maybe sound, video… I don´t now yet how it all can function, but I know I have to do it.

Moon is rising, some airplanes as well. I am middle of packing, tomorrow I will be on the road again.

This is the view when I am sitting on toilet. Good place to medetate.