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10 together

10 together

Today I got together exactly 10 persons who want to give their helping hand for poor families in Dahab! I keep going, I know that there are more children who need this help, families in Egypt are big.

I think about people who are leading big projects to help thousands of children, and I am sitting here and so happy about these 10 I can help. Or, I could say I give possibility for others to help. I feel so small but so happy.

It is strong wind and rain outside and complete darkness. Day was sunny and bright and I managed to enjoy it so much as it was possible. I took all from it. Was jogging, swimming, drying myself up in the sunshine, shouting out my happiness into the wind, hands stretched out to the sky. Cleaned up small huts for the people who are coming tonight and some who already came. Sat on the top of the matresses in the tractor´s trailer while John Arild drove tractor to the school house. Picked apples. Ate food on the balcony, with the view over the lake and felt so special feeling about it – someone cooked and I could eat it, such a luxury! I had everything I need.

Now I put my stuff together, have to make my “office” empty because people are coming to stay here during the course.

Iris is coming tomorrow, Christian, Michael and many other lovely persons as well.

What next?

What next?

So the time passes… I don´t understand why I should go away from here, but we leave this place tomorrow. Me and Christian are going to Sweden, Christian to one course, Matthias back home.

I don´t know yet to where in Sweden I go tomorrow, I don´t know where I will sleep next 3 nights. Shall I go to Järna or to Arvika? Stockholm? Is somebody waiting for me? What is calling me? I try to listen…

House on the Lake

House on the Lake

Last night at 3 we arrived to the lake in Austria. It is a special place here on the water, houses are on the feet next to each other, in the middle of the lake, lake grass in between houses.

Night sky was full of stars, when we drove boat I was looking all the time up to the sky until my neck was numb.

We loaded stuff off from the boat and then jumped into lake. It was So Good. Water is warm here and same time fresh. Earlier times I was a person who didn´t like to swim, but now I enjoy it very much. Specially here, water is all around and it is easy to jump in.

Today, late in the morning, after deep good sleep, I joined Christian to the harbour, he wanted to go to shopping and I wanted to go to jogging.

I ran from the harbour to the town called Rust, not so far away. First I didn´t know to where I run, but then I remembered a nice church garden and I went there. Made a brake under the trees, told one prayer and then ran back to the harbour. Maybe I have courage to take boat tomorrow and do the same. I never took this boat alone, I am not so good in parking.

Now we maybe watch a movie.

Bang bang

Bang bang

Here I am again. With photos.

I took a knife with me and cleaned the bench. Now it would be good to wash it, it has kind of soily layer on the surface.

This is very usual picture here in this village and further around. Last year there were almost no fruits and this year there are so many that branches are getting broken. They brake also because of dryness, said Christian.

Like big pearls on the ground…


I joined Christian to one garden where he was cutting one marple tree. It was a nice garden. Owners had water place for the birds, also insect hotels, many nice trees and plants. People were so thankful about what Christian told them about trees.

So nice rose. She asked us to smell it, it smelled for me like an eatable plant. Njomm.

Last night I could not fall asleep, the day had been so intense and I suddenly felt I have so many unloaded feelings in my. So I shaked out some and wept out some.

In the morning when I was reading peacefully Lorna´s prayer book, there were two strong bangs so that all the house was shaking. I thought maybe heating system was exploading in the celler, I called Christian and he said these were military airplanes. When they fly faster than sound speed is, then they make such bangs. Scary.

But let´s look now again photo of rose to end this post with a nice tune.




Last days are one-image-days. I just take one photo or none. Art of letting it be like that…

Was a nice day, I had much enthusiasm and I was in flow. First I made my morning rituals and then I walked up to the bench to sit there and feel the day. There´s a nice bench surrounded by birch trees, you can see the village from there and forest. Every time I am there I think – when I come next time I take a knife or something sharp with me to clean the bench from moss. Tomorrow? Maybe when I write it here I will remember.

I was writing different texts for Memorianum and wrote to some friends and asked for translations. Let´s see if they like to translate. Text are very simple and not so official.

Help, so many moths in this flat! I don´t know how many I catched already. The best to catch them is with wet hands. I was reading that they help to get rid of things, if you have a tendency to collect too much stuff and not borrow out or give away or use them yourself, then the moths will help you. Good point! I have it always pitty to give away things which I haven´t used. Shame. I have still half of my stuff in Berlin. Do I miss them? Nope. Have to clean up.

Today we celebrated Christian´s birthday with his workers and family, had many cakes, made some Pär Ahlbom games and then Christian played sound table for everyone. Nice event, would like to have such a meeting once in the month.

Now some steamed vegetables and then I go to bed direction.




When energy is down it is hard to remember how it was, when I had much energy and inspiration, it is hard to believe that this tiredness is passing by. It is like middle of the winter – you don´t really remember how the summer was.

Stillness, grayness, rain of Munich are in past, winds of Langenhain are greeting us. Fresh wind, with good smell. We made a stop on the top of the hill and I was stretching and moving like waking up after long sleep. Something in me started to move again.

The most sounding stairs I ever stepped on. Leaving our AirBnb flat.

Just a coffee.

Through the train window.

Left overs from birthday cake.

Arriving to Frankfurt.

I almost didn´t write today, but I am happy that I did. This day is only today, tomorrow is completely another day.

Let´s be alive!



Calm rainy München.
Tiredness continiues and rainy day allowes me to be less productive.

Christian is in his wish before he blowes out the candle.

Meeting Isar.

In the garden of the restaurant.

Writing a letter.